Little bit of this and that

I figured I haven't written in a while and I really don't have much time but I will throw a few things together :)

I am disappointed in a few things in my life but I am getting over it.
I hope Real Estate this coming year will be better - didn't sell a thing last year (
I change my office because it closed down and I am now at Century 21 Hudspeth Properties.

I haven't kept up on my weight goal and I need to get it in line. Just love food too much and I don't ever seem to have the time and when I do the energy needed.

My job at the Chamber has been great. I want to continue to grow I have so much more to give just want to learn alot. Politics is my 2009 goals. I want to learn and understand and use it.

I tried contacting some old friends and telling them how I feel about them. I haven't had a great response back...didn't think I was that bad in school LOL

Would like to get more done on the house. Our Christmas goals was to have Willows room done (NOT GOING TO HAPPEN) and tile the kitchen and redo the walls. (STILL POSSIBLE). The house require SO MUCH work but we have already done a lot already.

Willow, well she is perfect. She is a mommy's girl and I hope she will always will be. She is a dream come true for me. As many of you know I didn't think I would be blessed with a baby. She is so smart and keeps us laughing.

My close friend hit a bump in the road but if anyone I know she will get through it with flying colors. I think all of her friends use her as inspiration in life all the time. She just seems to be the most perfect mother, wife and person. I love her as if she was my family and I really claim her as mine.

I would like to learn and understand wine more. I want to be-able to taste all the flavors each has to offer and be-able to explain it too.

I guess that is it for now.

Thank for reading :)

Good Advise or Not

So most of my friends say I am a rock, stable I am grounded, I give good advice...
Well you see I can see things differently from the outside and you know I have learned a lot with some of my mistakes. However when it comes to my life well I am not the best. If I was a friend talking to me what kind of advise would I give myself. I just am not sure. I always tell my friends that the only person that can make any decision for themselves are them. The reason is...we vent when we are most upset and so we are focusing on the negative, we vent when things are right...but you are the only person that knows EVERYTHING the GOOD and the BAD.
I love listening and being there as I love my friends being there for me. It gives you great balance in your life knowing that you are not alone, you have support no matter what direction you go and maybe that you are not the only one experiencing a certain issue.

The reason I am writing this is because Shane and I have not always agreed on things and we argue a lot about. I know my husband is a good man but he is negative and focuses on that all the time which makes it hard for me. I always show him the good in things, why things are not that bad...why this a good and not the end of the world..........but it goes in one ear and out the other. That is frustrating. I know if I vented (which I have) to my friends and it was me listening I wonder what I would say and when I think about that I reevaluate what I say to others. "STOP LISTENING TO HIM AND JUST TELL HIM TO GET OVER HIMSELF" Nope not good either because he needs to talk. Whether I am taking it to heart (which I do) I ultimately know he is just venting and I know he is appreciating me being there listening. It drains me sometimes that there is more negative perspective through his eyes but as he says "I wish I could see the world through your eyes, I bet it's a nice place" It mostly is :) I wish he could too. I hoped I would rub off on him some but NOPE.
I wish he could see good and enjoy himself a little more but that is who he is and I accept that. I Love him and that is why I want him to always be happy and again he is really a good man and a wonderful father and he deserves to enjoy life.

So back to this...to my friends...I am far from knowing everything...but always know ...
Thank you for coming to me and trusting me.
Thank you for being there for me.
Thank you for being my friend.
I LOVE YOU MAN
oh and I love you too Shane - you are a good man and never forget that.

Shane & I

Here I go

Hello Dear Family & Friends.
I have been inspired to TRY to update and keep up a blog so you can keep up on the family. Now I do talk to most of you and emailed bunches of pictures but lets see how this works.
The pictures above are of me and my heart Willow - but you already know that.

I am involved in the Yadkin Valley Civitans currently and am its Secretary this year and it's Past President. I enjoy the Civitans because we are here to make a difference in our community for those have have any type of disabilities. We have done a lot already, we've volunteered to bring snacks to the Special Olyp. basketball team and we got to play with them. I SUCK! Willow enjoyed herself. We sponsored a Big Brothers & Big Sister Dinner, We volunteered that the Yadkin Valley Wine Festival, collected over 300 toys for needy children, had a food drive, made over 100 valentine cards for the elderly in a local nursing home and much more. It is satisfying to the soul :)

I work for the Yadkin Valley Chamber of Commerce www.yadkinvalley.org and have been here for going on 4 years. I enjoy my job. We network ALOT which helps me out of my shell. We work with 4 tourism authorities and of course are our members voice. If you really want to know more I can fill you in :)

I am also a Real Estate Broker. This year has SUCKED. I am currently looking for a new office to goto because the one I was with and loved is closing it's doors. I will keep you posted on this.

I married my husband Shane 2004. I knew him in High School. Honestly my best friend Wendy had this crush on him. I told her eeeewwww he is skinny and has long hair. They dated and I was always the third wheel (until I started dating someone) but Shane and I became friends and we hung out because we didn't live far from one another. We had fun. He was the daring guy and I was the square. We would sneak into state parks and hike (Scared the crap out of me), we would hang out by the bay and watch the sun rise just talking away. When I was kicked out he was there, I got real sick and he got me meds and Prom was coming and I didn't have $ so he bought me my dress :) He NEVER liked who I dated and after Wendy I really didn't like who he dated. When I was out I got a little out of control and I had to go back home, I was heading in the wrong direction. We have a lot more memories but too many to write but it was fun. I was blessed to have had Wendy and Shane because they always found a way to show me a good time. He is younger than me so he invited me to his prom and I wore the dress he got me. It was sweet but I did something to piss him off and we really were up and down after that. Well he went off to the Air Force (shocked all of us) after bootcamp asked me out. Shoot I would of but I was dating my current x husband. He pretty much was crushed by that and we didn't talk for a few years. He called me when he met his current x and called me when he married and I was planning mine. Well as the years past - we never spoke to each other. 2001 he called my house which was less than 1 week after I left and Tina (long story there) told him I moved back to my fathers. He called there and that night we met up. He rode up on this Harley and last I saw him he was skinny but now he had grown into a man. HUBBA HUBBA LOL however I was a mess. We spent that night by they Bay catching up on our lives and became close friends again. About a year later we started dating and here we are. That really is the short of a long story.

Now Willow; as most of you know when I was married to Dan we tried having a baby forever and even thought I had tons of tests to make sure I was ok (nothing wrong) we never had a baby. Well it just wasn't meant to be but Shane and I had no problems. Willow is my every dream come true. She has made the sun rise in my life.
Shane probably would of been fine not to have kids but he was awesome when I was pregnante and when I gave birth. Now if you haven't heard that story...12:00am I wake up back aches. Take a shower, pull out THE BOOK, humm doesn't sound like labor but my sister had just told me back aches can be the start of labor. I had a great pregnancy so hummm. Than I started cramping, I called the ER and they said how often are they coming (12:30 now) Less than every minute. They said come in sounds like you are in labor. I go up and tell Shane. He said How long do I have. DUNNO but I said about an hour. Well 20mts later I am having prob. walking the pain is so bad. We rush out and I got settled in my room about 3:30 and they said I was 8 cm. I WANTED SOMETHING FOR THE PAIN I WAS ABOUT TO ENDURE but too late. I told them to check me again and what do you know he we go, the dr. made my water break and Willow was here at 4:21am. Yep 1st baby I promise. They say the 2nd comes faster - I am glad Shane watched and helped me through it because he may have to deliver his 2nd baby (which isn't planned as of yet). Shane was Fantastic. I let him feed her her first meal (my milk wasn't in yet). Never will forget that image.

Anyways so here we are. We bought a foreclosed home in 2006, a month later Shane gets hurt Real Bad and it took close to a year 1/2 to recover. He still hurts A Lot but he is breathing :) We have lots to do still on the house but it's ours. It's 3 bed 2 bath, 3 acres. We got a new well (not by choice) we could of bought a small house for that well it dried our bank out, we had to get a new roof and tail lines. FUN FUN. I had always imagined Shane and I having our OWN HOME and w/a baby and it's just so awesome. I remember when I was young, I got teased a lot in school and I always wondered what man would love me and decide to spend their entire life with me. Well I am grateful someone has.

Willow as most of you know is amazing. She is brilliant, has an awesome personality and is beautiful (takes after her mommy). She is a mommies girl and right now she is so into coloring. She loves cats but doesn't care for dogs. She goes to daycare and its like she owns that place. They let her do whatever she wants and all the older kids go nuts over her. We come in and they run to the door screaming her name.

Well I think this is enough. Again as most of you know I am an open book and LOVE to gab but I don't gossip gab. :)
Love you all and thanks for reading my blog.